Everyday, i just sit around pondering on what is happening in my life. I am in complete trouble everywhere. And i really mean everywhere. Something might happen to me soon and i am really scared of it happening. I really wish Mum to be here with me now. Just Mum. No one else. I am seriously afraid of the future.

I don't know what to do now, seriously. I want to call it quits right this minute and i want to make a comeback. Ceh, like music bank got comeback stage all! AHHAHA.
Ok seriously, now what?

Koima came back and called me aside. I was seriously scared. But she just asked about school, asked have i changed course yet or not. So i told her that if i were to change, i have to repeat back a year. She just go, Waaaahh~. And she continued by saying, i think it's better if you take what you like. And i think taking sports is good. :))
Thanks la Koima. I love you la sister. But its not so easy to switch course. So yeah, just wait for news from me. :(

Wah, i guess, now, i'm really in trouble. I have an unpaid bill of a big amount-to me. I don't own a job. In 4 days time, i can't go to school like anymore? Wish an elder was here to help me out. Im so fvcking stressed out right now. I can go into depression. Thats why i said, people don't understand me. Argh!

If my life were to be made into a movie, it will be so damn boring and its rating will be like 1% only. Shingzzz.
Kakak wanted so much to go to the night market & so we went & it has been so long since i stepped into that area. I used to go with my Mum but ever since she left, we never stepped into that place again. Omg, Mum, imy.
We bought quite alot of food, gemok sia. -.-
And kakak & pekan being so lazy flagged a cab to go home. Buang duit jek. Haissh. Isn't it better to give it to me? But she gave the change of $5 to me, so thats good enough. Anyways, in the cab, the uncle taught us how to look at the street names. Like for example, i stay in the 400+ area, so the street name will be Yishun st 41. It will start with the no 4. Czool uh, thank you uncle, i learned something new. :))))))))

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ I'm still falling heads over heels for TAEYANG. & 2PM2AM. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

I have made up my mind & i just don't know if it is gonna work. Im not telling anyone anything yet cause i know you guys will go on and talk and talk and talk. Yada yada yada. Talked to Sheu for a bit earlier and just told her what i really felt. It felt great to talk to someone and she giving some support and advises. Thanks alot Sheu! Glad i had you as a friend. :))))))))

Now, i just have to take another step forward and talk to my siblings. I mean to help you guys and help myself. I want everyone to have a good life and not a problematic one. I want to show you that i can help myself and not trouble you guys. I feel so useless not being able to help out when you told me how much you have to fork out every month. Ahh, i hope God help me out in this. Amin.

Earlier, i logged in into my old msn account & at that point of time, i saw his name and my jaw just dropped not knowing what to do. Then, came that orangey pop out at the sidebar. I braised myself and opened it up and there it was the name he called me by with a question mark after it. All i did was answered, yes?